oops part 2.

I seriously forget about this blog!!! It's been another year that I've forgotten to post anything. wow, since last November, so much has happened. I went to Peru over the summer to teach English as a second language. it was rough, so much rougher than any other country I've been to. poverty wise, Africa was worse. living conditions, Africa was worse. But I saw things in Peru that have mentally scarred me for life. I saw a man beat a woman unconscious outside of my apartment as people passed without even flinching. I saw my roommate laying in the hospital bed so very sick and the doctors had no clue what was wrong with her. she didn't know any Spanish either so I was her sole translator, trying to translate the Spanish medical terminology into something comforting and familiar. she ended up going back to America to find out that she had Typhoid fever. the market in Peru was the worst. children drinking soup out of fly infested bowls and picking things off the dirt ground and eating them. it was extremely sad and disheartening. i was the lone cook, the mother of our group. i almost blew up the apartment when trying to light the gas oven one morning. needless to say, the others began to help out. i came home a much different person. it was really one of the most difficult of my experiences.

When I got back from Peru, me and my boyfriend of two years broke up. He left for China to teach English and my life is much better with him on a different continent.

This Fall, I began my senior year of undergrad work. I took two of the hardest classes of my lifetime. Advanced Grammar and Style, which has me analyzing every sentence of my own writing, speaking, and even small things like texting. It also has me doing the same to others. Every mistake has come to erkk me, thanks to Dr. Sepko. I also took Literary Theory, a graduate worthy class that will torment me forever. The whole class is focused around one text- "Ethan Brand" by Nathaniel Hawthorne. The entire semester is spent analyzing and discussing work with the major assignment being a literary analysis of the work through five different lenses of literary theory, with a minimum of 30 pages. My 5 theories were Marxism, New Historicism, New Criticism, Feminism, and Structuralism. The final section of the paper is through the lens of Reader-Response. Needless to say, I know these theories backwards and forwards after many long nights in the library staring at books. The class is over but I still can't get the assignment out of my mind. My entire love of libraries was almost put to waste after spending so much time in the library not for pleasure but for research.

I still have one week of Christmas break left and intend on checking out tons of books from the library that have nothing to do with Nathaniel Hawthorne or literary theory, and I can't wait.

So here I am. Five months away from college graduation and I have no clue what I'm doing with my life. I have so many different dreams and aspirations, things I have always longed to do. I want to travel all across the world and then settle down in an amazing town, Chicago, Denver, Seattle are at the top of my list. But job perspective jobs? I use to think I'd be a teacher forever. Teaching children how to speak English and not only survive, but thrive in the classroom. Then I thought I'd love to be a librarian. I'm quiet, helpful, and up to date on the latest literature so I'm cut out for the job. I love the silence and tranquility of the library. It's a safe haven for people from so many different walks of life and I'd love to witness that while doing something I love. Lately, I've been leaning more towards getting a job at a publishing company. I would be an editorial assistant or maybe do something with PR or HR. But who knows. I just want to see the world and then decide. =] Too bad I can't defer student loan payments for backpacking in Europe.

Oh, here's the link to my tumblr. I update it constantly with things I find beautiful, inspiring, or just plain delicious. [=

http://ohbeeka.tumblr.com/

oops.

i am the most forgetful blogger ever. it just completely escapes my mind to update these things.

hm. i'm about to finish up this semester at school, will officially be 3 semesters away from graduation. being a junior is tough- all of my core classes are so intense. but it's really nice of how long of a break i get. my last day is december 8th and classes start back on the 13th, though i'll be late.

i'm going to washington for 3 weeks this time as oppose to the 1 week i spent during the summer. some potential planes: find the most spectacular coastal towns, trip back to vancouver, and possibly [hopefully!!] a week long trip to alaska. it's about a 26 hour drive from my boyfriends parents house so we'll see. life is all around good. things are busy. life's busy. i'm busy. everyone's busy. i feel like i never get a chance to sit and breath. and sometimes all i want to do is sit underneath the shade of a big oak tree and breath. but there's no time for sitting and breathing. studying, classes, working, friends, boyfriend, it's all a little hectic.

i just want to sit and breath.

some new things[things?] in my life:

- i LOVE caramel apple spice from starbucks. it's basically hot apple juice but tastes so much better than it sounds.

-i like wooden swings, the kind old people sit in. i want one on my porch when i'm old and grey.

-i've never been the spontaneous type until now. this semester has included 2 roadtrips that began as soon as the idea was thought.

-i love my sweet boyfriend more than anything else in the world. he's a traveler, never really lived in one spot & grew up in argentina. he graduates in may and i'm terrified that he's going to leave me for the world.

-i've discovered that we weren't born for one corner. the whole world is my home. why don't people get that?

-i'm obsessed with tumblr! i have no clue how it started, but beautiful photographs and words are a part of my everyday life.

-this boy is my absolute favorite stranger ever: http://tylerknott.com/

his haikus make me weak at the knees, and his fiance is the most lucky ever.

A week from tomorrow, I will be on a plane to Africa. I have stops in Detroit, Amsterdam, and then Entebbe. This is what I'm suppose to be doing with my life and I absoulutely cannot wait. These are the people I was born to love.

Mhm..

So I have Xanga but everyone else that I'm friends with has this sooo therefore I followed the crowd down the dark alley and ended up here. I'm not new to blogging this is just my new blog.